So I’ve been trying a new way of living my life, to the best of my abilities. Just small things, that I’m noticing, are making a tremendous difference in my life such as counting my blessings in the morning, being thankful for the many things I’m lucky to have such as my friends, family, a job and a roof over my head and just all-around staying happy. It’s been so nice to see a lot of my old friends and new and to actually be hanging out again. The main thing I’m trying to do is just stay happy and not letting the daily troubles and tribulations get the best of me. I’ve been in a bad place and bad state of mind for a long time and it has made me very unhappy and lonely. I just feel more alive than I have in a very long time and I hope to stay this way. The last year or two I’ve been to hell and back… a few times, due in part to myself and partly from other factors, and I know it has only made me stronger. If I can look in the mirror at the end of the day and know that I gave the day my all and I’m happy and content with myself, than that’s more than I can ask for, for now. I have a set of goals, both big and small, short and long term and I intend to accomplish them all. I’ve overcome a lot and I’m very proud of myself. I met my mom for the first time in 15 years and that has been fantastic. She has filled a tremendous void in my life, that part of me that I’ve always felt was missing. Sorry to rant, it just feels good to let shit out sometimes. Thanks to all my friends who have always been there in one way or another. I am a firm believer that if you want to do something, no matter how big or small or how stupid other people may say it is, if you believe in yourself and what you’re doing, you can conquer anything you want and anything life throws at you.Life is fucking beautiful man. I see the fucking light now! Hate on me or this if you want. It will not phase me! :) Sorry if I forgot to tag someone. I feel enlightened and alive again.